Day 17 - before and after

It's been a struggle coming home. The darkness. The quiet. I'm struggling with being alone, and with the feeling that I am not doing anything with my life here. I feel like I could be doing so much more somewhere else. 

I know that right now God has me here for a reason. So to fight the feeling of loneliness I dive into the Word. It's one of the few things that has given me comfort these past couple of days. 

I decided to take this picture to represent the way that I feel. Normally I keep my room decently clean... but these last couple of days it has been destroyed with my lack of motivation. 

For lack of better words, this picture describes how unorganized I feel on the inside. 

It also doesn't help that I have a ton of mail to go through. I also have two suitcases and a backpack to unpack!

(f: 3.5; 1/13s; ISO 800; 18mm)

(f:4.5; 1/20s; ISO:800)

 I keep reminding myself that this is my temporary home, and soon I will be where I've always wanted to be: Heaven :)

I did finally make myself clean up today. I feel a tad bit more organized. 

Also, this wasn't supposed to be a moody post at all. I never expected that coming back would be such a difficult transition, but it has been.

It will help to start work and school again, and just have a life.

Any prayers for my transition would be awesome :)

I can already tell this next semester is going to be full of growth.