I took no pictures today. That was nice though. It was nice not having to lug my camera around, and it was nice being lazy and just not turning it on.
Although I love photography, it's nice to take a day off here and there.
So, instead I'll just write a little update, since I haven't been writing much lately.
Let's see...
I believe Asher took his first steps today (at least for me). I also found out that he is much more willing to try standing if he is upstairs on carpet, rather than on the main floor on the wood. He was pretty thrilled with himself :)
I turn 19 on Saturday... Yeah, I don't even feel like I'm 18 yet. But you can bet your bottom dollar that my family will be partying it up. Okay, actually, don't bet that. We're probably going to be packing and going to bed early.
I just wrote "Christina" all over my toothpaste tube because my family doesn't seem to comprehend that if they use my toothpaste, they are more likely to get mono.
My family leaves next Wednesday. I was upset that it was the middle of the week, because I have to get up at 4, drive them to Denver, and then be at work by 8:50, but it was nice of them to choose another day since they had wanted to leave on my birthday at first.
School is already pretty dull. Although I think I'm doing fairly well in the hard classes that I'm taking. AKA Biology. I'm not really a science person.
It's been raining for about 10 hours straight, and it's been heavy rain too. Rarely does Colorado's weather stay the same for that long.
Mono is still affecting me.
Something that has been on my mind a lot lately? Love. "And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him." 1 John 4:16
-- So go out and live in love today, folks!
Happy Wednesday!
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Day 186
This made me smile. We were walking home from the park and Caden and Maxwell grab hands :) What a lovely sight to see.
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Saturday, May 14, 2011
Day 132
My sweet Caden.
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The ISO was definitely WAY too high. Sigh, I still have so much to learn.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Day 130
Today Maxwell told me, "Miss Christina, we always know you love us." That made me smile. He is such a sweetheart.
I love these boys.
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Friday, May 6, 2011
A Beautiful Life
There are so many different things running through my mind. Another change is coming, and I can feel it.
I've been thinking a lot about this past year.... er, 9 months, to be exact. On Tuesday it will be exactly nine months since my family left me, and so much has happened.
I've always been a very dependent person, and although I believe I still am, I do know how to live on my own, and get things done without depending on someone.
There have been many tears, but even more laughs over the year. I've had my good times and I've had my bad times.
I've mourned the death of a good friend, but I've also welcomed many new lives into this beautiful world.
I've lost a few friends, but I have built better and stronger friendships with the ones who still remain, and I've also made new friends.
I've learned that God really wants the best for me, and I've learned that he has a plan. God has a plan just for Christina Shedd... isn't that amazing? isn't that humbling?
I've worked on discovering who I am, and I have come to many different conclusions.
I've discovered new skills that I have, and I have also discovered that I cannot do EVERYTHING.
I will say though, I think my job has taught me the most. Not only is it a great job to have because I can use what my teachers are teaching me, but there are other things that I have learned outside of what my teachers have taught me such as patience, kindness, love, and grace. I have learned that not everyone is perfect. I know I'm not.
When people find out that I am entering Early Childhood Education, and I am hoping to work with kids, it is quite common to hear them say, "Wow! You must be really patient." I know I've heard it more than once. That's not the truth though. Every single day when I go into work, it's something that I struggle with. I've been unfair, and unjust with the boys because I have become impatient. If I don't plan enough time to get out the door to go to the park, or to even just pick up Caden from school, then we're late, and I become frustrated.
Just from this, I have learned so much. I have to remind myself constantly that it takes longer for a child to get his jacket and shoes on than it would take me. They have just learned how to do all this.
Furthermore, there has been more than a few days when I have gone to work while I was not feeling well, while I have been extremely exhausted, or even if I am just having a grumpy day. Therefore, I tend to overreact to even the smallest things.
So, what I have learned through all of this is to just take time. Don't rush. If I can't get everything done that I wanted to, then so be it. Also, I've started practicing loving more, and trying to forget about my frustrations. Instead of becoming frustrated with the little things, I remind myself that they are young, and they still have much to learn. So I kiss them, hug them, or just spend quality time with them. I will snuggle with them, read a book to them, or have a conversation with them.
I say all this, because I don't want you to think I live in a perfect world while I am at work, because I don't. I know I post pictures of happy faces, but that doesn't mean there aren't tears before or after that.
I'm not perfect, but I am learning. I really look up to mothers. Any kind of mother. Any woman who has had children, and has raised, or begun to raise thier child, is someone I look up to. There's a lot of work needed to be done when a child comes into the world, and unlike myself, they don't get to have a break. At the end of the day, they are the ones who will really be caring for thier children, while I get to go home and sleep through the entire night.
I know, I'm ranting. To sum it up, my job has been such a blessing to me. I have learned so much, and I have been able to love even more. AND... I'm not perfect.
Another thing that I have been thankful for this year is my 365 photography project that I am doing. It gets me to not only learn a new skill, but I am able to capture all of these memories. It also reminds me that there is ALWAYS something to smile about. I cannot remember a time that taking my camera out did not make me feel good. Every time I take my camera out I look through the pictures, and see something beautiful.
It's pushed me to see life in a different way. It's pushed me to see life as so incredibly beautiful. And this happens every day. God has definitely given me a beautiful life.
So, here's another personal post about my life. I've slacked a little due to my photography project, but I have been reminded that this too is something that I enjoy.
I hope that YOU have enjoyed this little personal post.
Happy Friday, everyone!
I've been thinking a lot about this past year.... er, 9 months, to be exact. On Tuesday it will be exactly nine months since my family left me, and so much has happened.
I've always been a very dependent person, and although I believe I still am, I do know how to live on my own, and get things done without depending on someone.
There have been many tears, but even more laughs over the year. I've had my good times and I've had my bad times.
I've mourned the death of a good friend, but I've also welcomed many new lives into this beautiful world.
I've lost a few friends, but I have built better and stronger friendships with the ones who still remain, and I've also made new friends.
I've learned that God really wants the best for me, and I've learned that he has a plan. God has a plan just for Christina Shedd... isn't that amazing? isn't that humbling?
I've worked on discovering who I am, and I have come to many different conclusions.
I've discovered new skills that I have, and I have also discovered that I cannot do EVERYTHING.
I will say though, I think my job has taught me the most. Not only is it a great job to have because I can use what my teachers are teaching me, but there are other things that I have learned outside of what my teachers have taught me such as patience, kindness, love, and grace. I have learned that not everyone is perfect. I know I'm not.
When people find out that I am entering Early Childhood Education, and I am hoping to work with kids, it is quite common to hear them say, "Wow! You must be really patient." I know I've heard it more than once. That's not the truth though. Every single day when I go into work, it's something that I struggle with. I've been unfair, and unjust with the boys because I have become impatient. If I don't plan enough time to get out the door to go to the park, or to even just pick up Caden from school, then we're late, and I become frustrated.
Just from this, I have learned so much. I have to remind myself constantly that it takes longer for a child to get his jacket and shoes on than it would take me. They have just learned how to do all this.
Furthermore, there has been more than a few days when I have gone to work while I was not feeling well, while I have been extremely exhausted, or even if I am just having a grumpy day. Therefore, I tend to overreact to even the smallest things.
So, what I have learned through all of this is to just take time. Don't rush. If I can't get everything done that I wanted to, then so be it. Also, I've started practicing loving more, and trying to forget about my frustrations. Instead of becoming frustrated with the little things, I remind myself that they are young, and they still have much to learn. So I kiss them, hug them, or just spend quality time with them. I will snuggle with them, read a book to them, or have a conversation with them.
I say all this, because I don't want you to think I live in a perfect world while I am at work, because I don't. I know I post pictures of happy faces, but that doesn't mean there aren't tears before or after that.
I'm not perfect, but I am learning. I really look up to mothers. Any kind of mother. Any woman who has had children, and has raised, or begun to raise thier child, is someone I look up to. There's a lot of work needed to be done when a child comes into the world, and unlike myself, they don't get to have a break. At the end of the day, they are the ones who will really be caring for thier children, while I get to go home and sleep through the entire night.
I know, I'm ranting. To sum it up, my job has been such a blessing to me. I have learned so much, and I have been able to love even more. AND... I'm not perfect.
Another thing that I have been thankful for this year is my 365 photography project that I am doing. It gets me to not only learn a new skill, but I am able to capture all of these memories. It also reminds me that there is ALWAYS something to smile about. I cannot remember a time that taking my camera out did not make me feel good. Every time I take my camera out I look through the pictures, and see something beautiful.
It's pushed me to see life in a different way. It's pushed me to see life as so incredibly beautiful. And this happens every day. God has definitely given me a beautiful life.
So, here's another personal post about my life. I've slacked a little due to my photography project, but I have been reminded that this too is something that I enjoy.
I hope that YOU have enjoyed this little personal post.
Happy Friday, everyone!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Oh How He Loves
Sometimes I will suddenly be attacked by how much God loves me. All at once this great emotion will hit me, and it will remind me how much I don't deserve God's love, mercy, and grace. It will hit so hard that it will bring tears.
I know I don't deserve God's love. I know I am just a lowly sinner who deserves nothing but to go to hell. But because God has grace, He decided he would let his only son die to save ME. Me. wow. I can't even believe it. Somedays I feel as though I might be able to grasp this idea... but I never actually do.
A couple weeks ago I was thinking about who I would be if I didn't have God in my life... and I came to the conclusion that I would be such a different person. I would have no hope. at all. Honestly, I probably would have a few kids right now. SO weird.
Moving on, today I was stopped at a red light, and for some reason I looked in my rearview mirror at the lady behind me, and I notice that she was crying her heart out. That just broke my heart. Instantly I sent up a prayer asking God to comfort her through whatever it is she may be going through.
Broken hearts break my heart.
That is all that I have to say.
Have a wonderful weekend :)
Bask in God's love, because that's what I am going to do!
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