Senior Pictures.

As most of you know, I had my senior pictures taken recently. These are a few of my favorite ones. Let me know what you think. Also, if you have ones you like check the rest out on Facebook and let me know :) For the yearbook we are supposedly supposed to send in three pictures. One of our full body. One that is a close up. And then any one that we want.

I like the colors in this one.

This is not one of the pictures I am going to use. But I thought it was an awesome jumping one.

This one is one of my favorites.

This one is probably one of my favorites

This one I like a lot.

Oh How He Loves

Sometimes I will suddenly be attacked by how much God loves me. All at once this great emotion will hit me, and it will remind me how much I don't deserve God's love, mercy, and grace. It will hit so hard that it will bring tears.

I know I don't deserve God's love. I know I am just a lowly sinner who deserves nothing but to go to hell. But because God has grace, He decided he would let his only son die to save ME. Me. wow. I can't even believe it. Somedays I feel as though I might be able to grasp this idea... but I never actually do.

A couple weeks ago I was thinking about who I would be if I didn't have God in my life... and I came to the conclusion that I would be such a different person. I would have no hope. at all. Honestly, I probably would have a few kids right now. SO weird.

Moving on, today I was stopped at a red light, and for some reason I looked in my rearview mirror at the lady behind me, and I notice that she was crying her heart out. That just broke my heart. Instantly I sent up a prayer asking God to comfort her through whatever it is she may be going through.

Broken hearts break my heart.

That is all that I have to say.

Have a wonderful weekend :)

Bask in God's love, because that's what I am going to do!

Something New

We've all heard the saying, "you learn something new everyday" And I've been thinking a lot about that. What does learning consist of?

I mean, I know I did learn something new today... I learned some things about Lord Byron in Literature. Things I never knew. However, what is it I learn when I don't go to school? Do I really end up learning something new everyday?

And as I asked before, what does learning consist of? Would learning something new include me watching a child have his first temper tantrum in front of me, or would it be myself just observing something? Or maybe I just started learning how to cope with it, and how I should start disciplining him if he ends up doing it again. Which I am sure he will.

Anyway, what is something new that you learned today?

pulchritudinous.

It has been one crazy week. Not only did I have midterms, but I also had a paper I had to finish and a big, crazy, time consuming project. Along with all that school stuff, I also worked more.

I am so blissfully delighted to have this week done and over with. It was not a fun week. I have to admit, this was the first week where I have had a break down since my family left. I would literally wake up and be busy until I crashed around 1 or 2 in the a.m. I am not writing to complain. Not at all. Not many people read my blog, but my sisters do, and blogging is an auspicious way to do it. So THAT is why I am telling you this. Just sayin'

I never thought of midterms to be that big of a deal, but this week was hard. and crazy. I had a midterm in geography, and although it was open book and taken at home, it was definitely my least favorite midterm this year. It had six different parts, and each part got longer. In the end, each section averaged out to be at least an hour long. This is along with the hour and a half of geography homework and actually having to go to class. So, that was fun.

My next midterm was on Thursday night. I happened to actually study for a couple of hours for this midterm, and when I got to class I found out that it was open book. (Yay! :)) Although it was open book and I had studied for it, it still turned out to be quite difficult. Hopefully I got at least a B. That would be absolutely delightful.

My last midterm was today. SO I AM DONE :) This one was NOT open book, and I did not study for it. Yeah, I was kind of over it by the time I got to Friday. I also have a legitimate reason as to why I ended up not studying, because I was going to. I think I did fairly well on this midterm. My guess is that I did better on this one than my other ones.

I also had a project along with all my lovely midterms. Said project was to create a five week meal plan for a toddlers classroom. Along with the nutrition value of one day and the cost per child. Although this may be seem manageable, it ended up being very, VERY time consuming.

Alright, I know. You're tired of hearing about my homework. Work was also crazy this week. Normally I only work Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. This week I also worked Wednesday, and instead of just a half day on Friday, I pretty much worked ALL. DAY. LONG. This is why I didn't study, because I thought I would have time in between work and class to study. The reason for working so long on Friday was that, Kate, the lady I work for had strep and the flu and the doctor told her that she couldn't be around the baby, Asher, for 24 hours at the least. So, I was called in early, and then asked to stay until her husband got home. It is so much more stressful watching the kids when the parent is home. Especially when they are sick. I was trying to keep the kids quiet... but as most of you know, kids just aren't quiet. In the morning we ended up going to the park for about an hour to two hours. Thankfully, it was a brilliant, colorful, and very bright day. So we had fun wasting all of our energy running across fields and tumbling down slides.

We also ended up having to go to my high school, CSEC, to hand in my ordering information for my cap and gown. GASP. Yes, I am actually graduating. Crazy, huh? So I ended up hauling the boys to school with me, and you wouldn't believe how many looks we got. I'm pretty sure some of the people there thought I had me some babies, which is just crazy! What high schooler would ever have a baby? Oh wait, there are several students at the high school who actually do have kids...

I really think that that is all that I have to say... for now that is.

Oh! Also, last Sunday I got my senior pictures done. I haven't seen any yet, but I am sure I looked very pulchritudinous. Yes, I just used that word. I don't know if I used it correctly, but I really wanted to use it.

Knowledge vs. Wisdom

I was talking to my mom today, and she ended up asking me how someone knows if they are a

Christian. I struggled with this question for a little bit. I mean, I KNOW that I am a Christian...

but how would I explain that knowledge to someone else? Especially a non-christian.

How would I explain the fact that I talk to someone I don't see? How do I explain that I depend on someone that I have never met face to face?

I wouldn't say that this is an easy question, because the people who do not have that relationship with Christ just would not comprehend it.

I answered my mom this way: It wouldn't be easy to explain my relationship to someone without the understanding of a relationship with God. In fact, I think it would be nearly impossible. I mean, maybe they would be touched by the emotional aspect. Jesus is my everything. But would they really understand?

Honestly, I feel like for most people who do not know Christ, you would have to argue your faith in a scientific way. You would have to tell them that the bible has never been proved wrong. Furthermore, you would have to tell them that all of the things that were prophesied, happened. Therefore, if no one can prove it wrong, than I am not wrong for believing it, and you may want to start choosing to believe it yourself.

Those are just some simple thoughts that I had on this idea. What actually made me write this was that my ACTUAL relationship with God is so true. Whether you can believe that insanity or not... but I am not insane. So you better believe it.

Anyway, I was reading through my prayer journal... which is actually more like a, God, I am falling apart I need you journal, which I only write in every few months. I ran across a prayer that I wrote down in April, and I realized that God had answered it. He answered it in such a subtle way that I never even noticed it.

That right there is why I am so sure in my relationship with God. :)

It is better to trust the Lord than to put confidence in men. It is better to take refuge in Him than in the mightiest king. Psalm 118: 8-9

See, God has come to save me! I will trust and not be afraid, for the Lord is my strength and song; he is my salvation. Isaiah 12:2

God is EXTREMELY good. :)

That's all.

My nephew...

... is so cute. And I forgot that I had some pictures of him that I took JUST last week :) So I am going to let you see some of them. I know. I just made your day.

His shirt says, "Breast fed baby. Stick around for the show."

Look at those big eyes!

What a drool monster!

He wanted to grab the camera so badly.

Do you not agree that he is the cutest thing?

I miss this little guy so much!

Thanks for something.

Dear anyone who reads this,

thank you.

Yep. That's really all I had to say.

But I guess I can tell you how my week is going while I am here. It has been one very drawn out week. And it's only Wednesday. I am a tad bit overwhelmed, and I am trying not to let that get the best of me, because I know I shouldn't be. I also feel like I have a lot to complain about... but I really don't. So instead of complaining, I will tell you what I am so very thankful about.

• Music. I just like it.
• My Mom. Not only does she love me enough to edit a paper for me, but she encourages me every single day.
• My relationship with Jesus. He gets me through the longest of days. Thank you.
• My readers... albeit there aren't many.
• My sister, Julianna. Although she may not know it, I am so proud of her. I wish I were as brave as her...
• My job. I know I talk about it a lot. But it is in my life about 20 hours a week so it is hard not to. My boys make me smile, and they have been teaching me so much, mostly about patience.
• Good movies that make laugh.
• TV shows that waste time.
• Some people in particular who are very special to me. Although they may not know it.
• My camera. It captures some great memories.

Those are just a few things that I am thankful for. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for a lot more! but these are just things that were most prominent at the moment.

Now tell me, what are YOU thankful for?

Tonight...

...i just sat around. and it was absolutely beautiful. after such a long week of working, homework, cleaning, cooking, shopping, school, and every other thing imaginable, i just sat around. i ate popcorn and ice cream. i watched one show after another. i read my blogs. i worked on a puzzle. played the wii and completely rocked at baseball. and i thought about how much i love life. especially after evenings like this one right here. life is awesome. and there is not much more to say.

i know things will be different tomorrow morning. when i wake up all groggy and drag myself to work. and then head to two classes. and then after that head to a meeting. i know it will be different. i know i will be tired, and i know i will have to force myself to do things.

but for now i will enjoy my time doing what i want. and i will smile and laugh and watch more shows. i will go to bed too late. but i will enjoy it. and it reminds me to thank god for my awesomely wonderful life that he gave me.

that is all. i will go enjoy my life some more now. goodnight.